Why lose it?

Why Lose Weight?! What a dumb damn question!

Ok, I will be good! I will try to answer this the best way I can. Well, actually, there are too many reasons and not enough space to go through all of them on here. I think it is safe to say that most of those of us out there who are going through this will know only to well the lack of acceptance we get throughout our lives: both a lack of acceptance by society and by those closest to us, like family and friends. But most painful and harmful is the lack of acceptance we have of ourselves.

Now, possible health implications aside, I do not believe for a minute that there is anything wrong with being overweight. I know there are people out there who do love and accept us for who we are. And, I love you all that do!

Being able to love and accept yourself regardless of your weight or appearance is damn good. But I have been around long enough to know that I will never be able to accept my body as it is and live a full life out among the world.

So while I know that there are other issues that stop my development of self-worth and acceptance, I know that loosing the weight and getting to a point where I feel healthy, fit, strong, and “sexy-ER” will not hurt the quest to find peace within my own skin.

OK…….OK….so you want real answers? Here you go! I must warn you, some of my family may not want to hear this. If you don’t want to hear about some of the sexual reasons, close this page before you read on!

Still here? Ok, here are the reasons why I want be “fine-ER”:

1. To have more energy
2. To not have people move to the side when I walk past them in the corridor
3. To be able to run
4. To buy normal size clothes off the rack
5. To step foot in ‘normal’ clothing stores
6. To wear jeans
7. To wear smaller lingerie
8. To fit comfortably into a plane seat
9. To be able to wear calf length boots (the big legs yanno?)
10. To be “fine-ER”
11. To feel better about myself and my body To have sex standing up!
12. So I won’t always think people are talking about me
13. To fit into booths without getting that “squished” feeling
14. To not be out of breath after or during “normal” activities
15. To not have to worry about my pants wear thin between my thighs
16. No more elastic waistbands!
17. To be able to cross my arms without having them rest on my belly
18. To be able to cross my legs
19. To want my full-body picture taken
20. To be able to say that I did it!
21. To live a longer, healthier life
22. To be able to wrap a normal-sized towel around myself
23. To be able to wear cuter, more stylish store bought clothes
24. So when I see someone from high-school that I had a crush on I can rub it in their face.
25. I don’t want to be the “Fat Mom”
26. So I can prove all the people that said I can’t do it wrong
27. Victoria’s Secret..nuff said!
28. So I can wear the skinny high heels instead of the wider ones
29. To be able to wear a bathing suit without shame or a T-shirt over it
30. So I won’t feel so tired all of the time
31. Thigh-high boots! (Just a wee bit of the freak in me)
32. To be able to enjoy sex more! (its good now, but the thought of standing on my head too?)
33. So I won’t always have to be worrying about if you could see my “rolls”
34. No more double chin!
35. Tie both my shoes without having to take a break between them with both feet on the floor See my ‘kitty cat’ without having to look in the mirror
36. Lie flat on my back without feeling that my boobies are trying to suffocate me
37. To learn to swim
38. To swim to the bottom of a swimming pool (I am so buoyant now I can’t get to the bottom)
39. Buy a size that doesn’t have any X’s in it
40. To sit down in the tub without touching the side
41. Not have to use the handicapped bathroom in a store because I don’t have enough room in the regular stalls
42. Not have to grease my ass to fit into the seats in a movie theater
43. Wear seat belts in the back seat of a car
44. Ride a bicycle again
45. Go bra-less in public (I am not holding my breath on this one)
46. Walking…just being able to walk long distances with ease.
47. Jogging…(I don’t believe I will ever jog!) Sex!….nuff said
48. Having control over me!
49. Enjoying food.
50. Climbing stairs.
51. Realizing that I am worth the effort it takes.
52. Knowing that ‘screwing up’ one day, one week…even a year….will not make or break me.
53. Seeing my doctor’s face every time I see him!
54. Realizing that I can get back on program just as quickly as I came off.
55. Every aspect of my health improving.
56. Realizing I never really grew up….and that I never want to!
57. People I know walking right past me because they don’t recognize me. (I can’t wait for this one)
58. Knowing that the people I care most about have only benefited from me putting myself first.
59. Learning how to forgive myself for not being perfect.
60. Knowing how good I feel when I treat my body right.
61. Watching people’s faces when I tell them how much weight I’ve lost.
62. For people that ask if they can ‘touch me’ to feel inspired to lose weight
63. Learning that the small things make such a difference.
64. Going on rides at the amusement park..and fitting.
65. Being aware that it’s the quality of my life that matters most.
66. Not being so afraid of getting the diabetes that runs in my family.
67. To get a full hug
68. Knowing that I am doing the best that I can do for myself.
69. Fitting through turnstiles.
70. People actually offering me food.
71. Being able to weight myself on a regular scale.
72. Wearing something and actually liking how I look in it!
73. Being able to shop in the ‘normal’ section of a store.
74. Having a lap!
75. Not being afraid of breaking the chair by sitting in it.
76. Being able to sit comfortably.
77. Finding bones I never knew I had!
78. Finding muscles I never knew I had!
79. Sleeping better and waking up more refreshed.
80. Setting a good example for my loved ones and being able to teach them the tools for good health.
81. Knowing nothing tastes as good as I feel.
82. Knowing how proud my grandmother would have been of me for taking control.
83. Having the benefit of ‘being there’ and not judging others because of their size!
84. The attention I get from men! Yup, I love it!
85. Being empowered enough to realize that I can do anything I set my mind to!
86. Being able to help and inspire other people to help themselves as I continue help myself.
87. My mate being able to pick carry me to the bed. (Could you imagine?)
88. Having leftovers!
89. Wearing sexy-er lingerie.
90. My knees being so much happier!
91. My ankles being so much happier!
92. My hips being so much happier!
93. Being cold all the time…instead of sweating all of the time like I do.
94. To have my feet quit going to sleep when I sit for a long time.
95. The woman who said…. “WOW…you mean you used to really be that BIG?”
96. No more broken toilet seats.
97. Having my “before” picture tattooed on my forehead
98. The track marks on my treadmill!
99. Being able to jump up and into an 18″ window after locking myself out of my house!
100. To not just exist through life…..but to LIVE!
101. Someone actually telling me they want to look like me.
102. To feel proud and in control of my life!! (This is the most important one!)

…this list will continue to grow.