Hey girl!
Today I’ve been thinking about all the weight I’ve lost…naw, not physical pounds. I’m talking about the real weight I had to shed before I could even think about losing anything physical. Honestly, the weight I carried on my mind was heavier than anything my body could ever hold. All the trauma, the self-doubt, the fear that I wasn’t enough…it was dragging me down and keeping me stuck.
I had to get real with myself. There was no way I could focus on losing pounds when my mind was so weighed down with everything I’d been avoiding…the shit I’ve been holding on to. The pressure wasn’t just on my body…. it was all up in my spirit too. And before I could even touch that scale, I had to unpack some of the emotional baggage that was keeping me from moving forward.
The Mental Weight I Had to Drop
Whew. It’s wild to think about now, but I was out here carrying trauma like it was crazy. Old wounds, unhealed pain, self-hate… it was all just sitting on me. I didn’t even realize how heavy it was until I started trying to let it go. The things I’d been holding onto for years? That’s what was keeping me from truly living.
It was deep. I wasn’t just fighting to lose weight… I was fighting for my life, for my peace, and for my self-worth. The way I saw it, I had to break the mess in my mind before I could even think about losing the weight on my body.
My Healing Process
So, I got to work. I started digging deep into my mind and soul, doing the messy, ugly, but necessary healing. I did shadow work, talked it out in therapy, dealt with it in coaching, and spent so much time journaling… getting real with myself. There were so many times I didn’t think I could do it, where the pain felt like too much, but every time I faced it…I felt lighter.
I started realizing that all this stuff weighing me down didn’t belong to me anymore. I had to let it go. And in doing that, I found out something huge: I matter. I deserve to live in a body that feels good, in a mind that’s clear. And the more I healed, the freer I felt…not in pounds, but in my spirit.
I had help along the way, too. My life coaches, my meeting mates, my support system—they were right there when I needed them. I couldn’t have done it alone, and honestly, I’m so grateful I didn’t have to.
Now It’s Time for My Body to Catch Up
Now that I’ve done all this internal work, I finally feel ready to focus on my body. My mind is clear, my heart is open, and I’m not weighed down by the things that used to hold me back. Now, I can look at this physical weight loss as part of the process, not the whole journey.
I’m coming at it differently this time, though. I’m not chasing some number on the scale. I’m chasing the life I deserve… one where my body and my mind align with the peace I’ve been working so hard for. And it’s coming from a place of self-love, not punishment or pressure.
I’m starting slow. Small changes here and there. Being mindful of how I treat my body and celebrating the progress, no matter how small. I’m giving myself the grace I need because I know this is about so much more than just losing pounds.
My Intentions
So, I’m setting intentions, not strict goals. I’m not focused on fast weight loss or some magic number that’ll make me feel “good enough.” Naw. My intention is to treat my body with the love and care it deserves. To let my physical transformation catch up with the mental work I’ve already done.
I’m committed to myself in a way I’ve never been before. And I’m not in a rush. This is about lasting change. The weight loss is just one part of it—the real transformation has already happened inside me.
Final Thoughts
As I write this, I’m realizing that my journey hasn’t been about the scale at all. It’s about dropping the weight of the things that don’t help me anymore. From my mind to my body, I’m working on becoming the best version of myself, inside and out.
And if anyone else is reading this, feeling like they’ve been carrying things too heavy to bear? Sis, it’s time to let that go. You deserve a body and mind that feel free, that align with the peace you’re seeking. Your journey doesn’t start with pounds—it starts with healing your heart.
Ok girl….I gotta bounce…we’ll talk again soon!
Love ya! Mean it!
