Hey boo!
It’s been a while, huh? We’ve been through some real crap lately…..but come on girl…..we’ve gotta talk.
This isn’t gonna be easy. And, to be honest, I’m kinda dreading having to say it. But, I think it’s time…..I really do.
Alright, listen….I love you! I mean it! I’m not talking about some airy-fairy love, but to the core…the kind that’s been dragged through the mud. You know I love you harder than I’ve ever loved anyone else. That might be a trip coming from me….but it’s true. It’s finally FULLY true.
It’s no secret that our past was a beast…leaving wounds I never thought would heal. You and I have been in the trenches….fighting some hard and painful battles. We’ve faced demons and walked through hell in gasoline drawers! But, every single time, we came out swinging…..ready to set this whole damn world on fire!
You know I love you, but now…the hard part. This letter has been a long time coming,
Mik, we’ve been through some heavy shit boo! Our battles left us with scars deeper than I care to admit. You know how we’ve always thought that clinging to our past was some crazy badge of honor…a sign of strength? Damn, were we wrong!
Until now, I’ve protected us….taking hit after hit. I protected you the only way I knew how. I hope you feel that. I hope you forever feel that. I’ve been your shield, your barbed-wired bat in every fight. But sweetheart, it’s time for us to let that shit go. It’s time for you to let ME go. You’ve outgrown me. That same shield we hold on to is heavy, and let’s be real…it’s only been holding you back. That shield wasn’t protecting us at all. We both know that wasn’t even a shield…let’s be real…you know it turned out to be…..shackles. It’s time to put it down baby girl.
Let’s try something different. Let’s make being vulnerable our new shield. Yeah, it’s gonna be terrifying, but I think it’ll be exciting too. That shit sounds crazy, right? But, there’s strength in baring our bruises and still standing strong.
You already know….we’ve been ride or die from birth! But now….the truth is….you don’t need me like you used to. I know…I know….that’s a bitter pill to swallow. It sure as hell ain’t easy for me either. But hey, it’s the truth. I’ve done my part. I’ve loved you completely, protected you, and carried you through all the dark places. You don’t need protecting anymore.
Not too long ago….I had a wake-up call. I realized that loving myself isn’t about long baths, reading a book, or whispering sweet nothings in the mirror. It’s about grinding it out, treating myself with respect…with integrity, even when I’m a mess and life is kicking my ass. It’s a promise to keep fighting….even when I want to give up.
And, just so you know…letting go of the past isn’t about erasing it or even fixing it. Nope! It’s about acknowledging it, owning it, honoring our scars, and then choosing to step away from it with our head held high! We already know it’s raw and messy as hell, but that process is filled with moments of vulnerability that’ll crack you open, but somehow still make you stronger. It’s about recognizing that our scars are medals of our survival, not something to regret.
Anyway, it’s time for me to step back into the shadows….not because I want to, but because I have to. You’re ready to own this, to live and heal and be the extraordinary soul you were always meant to be. It’s your time to blaze a trail so bright it’ll guide others long after you’ve moved on!
As you move forward, you don’t need me any longer. It’s like I’m the caterpillar…but you’re the butterfly. It’s time to spread your wings beautiful.
But hold up, don’t get it twisted, if times get too dark, if too much doubt creeps back in, remember….I’m not really gone, I’m just resting. I’m the foundation you stand on, the laughter fueling your voice, and grit in your resolve. I’m right here….always in the background, ready to poke you, to remind you of the shit you’ve overcome and just how dope you already are!
I’m still here. I’m not gone….I’m just no longer going to lead your way. I’m still your ace in the hole, but it’s your turn now…TAG! You’re it!
It’s crazy, but as I’m writing this, I can almost see you reading it….I see the proud tears rolling down your cheeks…that smile on your face. I see you lighter, not just from the weight…but free from the chokehold of the past. I see you laughing louder, fighting harder, and loving openly. I see you turning your scars into stories…your pain into power. I see you knowing that whatever comes….you are enough…you are worthy….you are loved….deeply….truly! I see you embracing life…. FULLY…. with open arms. I see you being the embodiment of every dream we dared to dream… every battle we survived. I see you FINALLY happy….because you’ve made it!
You’re finally the version of us that kicked the past in the teeth. You’re living proof that we didn’t just survive, we thrived! You’ve mastered the art of self-love, not just as some airy-fairy concept but as a practice, a day-to-day commitment to treat yourself with respect, patience, and….. above all, love.
You’re strong….braver than you even know yet….and it’s time you stand in that strength…and you don’t need me anymore for that.
You’re destined to for a life that’s loud, proud, and blindingly bright. You deserve to laugh so hard that it makes you have to catch your breath. You deserve to love so deeply that it fills up every nook and cranny of your soul. You deserve to take every risk that scares the piss outta you….because you know now THAT’S the place where the magic is. It’s time for you to shine, to laugh without holding back, and to love without fear.
The world needs your wild spirit, Mikki!
Let’s be real….life just might throw you some sucker punches, and as sure as hell, it’ll try to knock you down again, we both know it! Tragedy doesn’t play fair, and it doesn’t care who you are. But, here’s the thing, when the darkness comes knocking, remember who the hell you are.
Don’t you dare think….for even a second….that you can’t handle it. You’ve got this unimaginable strength. You’ve got this undying resilience in you. You’ll face it head-on, and you’ll keep moving because that’s what you do! You will make it through, not because you have to, but because it’s who you are!
Your destiny is loud af! It’s a life so bright it’ll blind anyone who even thinks about underestimating you. You’re gonna find joy in the chaos, a love that overflows your cup, and do shit that even makes you scared af.
So, this is where I say goodbye sweetheart, not with sadness, but with a heart full of gratitude for all that we have endured, for the lessons learned, and the strength gained. I’m letting you go with love. So, go on, beautiful soul, kick down the door to our future.
I’ll forever have your back. But, the truth is, you’re strong enough now to go at it without me… baby girl. You can do this! Like our physical therapist said, “You’re already strong enough. It’s already in you!” Like Bat said, “You’re Mik….you’re wet!” and like he said right before he left, “I KNOW you’ll be fine.”
Use our dreams…mixed with your courage…and go live our dope ass life. Go discover a new life….one without the past holding you back….one without you even thinking you still need me. Because you don’t. It’s already in you baby girl!
Now…..go be great dammit!
With all the love imaginable…….
The you…you used to be!
